I never thought life would be so different and hard without you. Whenever I was upset or mad simply just talking to you would make it go away. Life has been more stressful as I continue to think about the memories we once had, crying because someone else could create new memories with you. To top it off and make things worse I catch myself thinking of the new memories we could have created. Summer could have been the cure to us. Memories going to valleyfair, the thought of you riding with someone else. You going to the movies in someone elses arms. It all kills. I always picture us being together. This summer would have opened a lot of doors. We would actual get the chance to sleep in together and when we woke up we could go do something together. I love our good times, it was perfect. Are bad times would get rough at times and I tried my hardest to remember the good times we had. Maybe the thing that kills me the most is you being happy with someone else? The saying if there with someone else happily and you tell her you are happy for her is complete bs, it would honestly kill me. I know im not perfect, the smartest guy around or the best looking but I know for a fact that I loved you with all my heart. I wish I didnt have the flaws I did. I wish I could have been that boyfriend you would tell of your friends about. Im sorry fot not always being there for you. If life had a redo button I would do so much to better us. Vivian there will ALWAYS be a spot in my heart weather its my whole heart or just a little bit of it. This is going to kill me and give me BUTTERFIES at the same time because I havent said in awhile so here it goes. BABE, I will LOVE YOU FOREVER.